I realise that I'm a total idiot.
People always say
"Your heart will tell you what to do."
So...
What happens when it doesn't?
Should we just wait for it to happen?
Some might say
"Grab every single chance you have."
What happens if you don't have any?
Another person will say
"Create your own chance."
So what happens if you can't do anything at all?
What will happen if you already hanging onto the tail of faith?
When you're just trying to let others see that you're struggling,
Yet, they somehow managed to see through all your hard work?
Can anyone tell me what will happen now?

I Don't Know, okay?

I'm sick of getting bossed around.
About what I wanna become.
I seriously DON'T KNOW, OKAY??!!
Yeah, I know, EVERYONE knows what they wanna become.
Except for me.
I was always the fairytale type.
There must be something cracked up in my mind.
But when you have a mother who tells you to be a dentist every 5 seconds of the day, there's bound to be something weird happening up in your head.
Dentist, dentist, dentist.
This very word goes through my mind far many more times than I've washed my socks.
I can't even think straight right now.
Dentist, singer, dentist, singer.

They (8.Dec.09) [Original Song]

Verse 1:
They go around without a smile
Hanging with their gang
They like to mock people out loud
as if all the people in the world are deaf

Refrain 1:
I don't really care what say about me
But it hurts me so oh

Chorus:
'Cause they'll never know what they've done wrong
That we'd cried alone in the dark all night long
And they'll never see what we can be
For they never did care so why should we
There's a time to shine for everyone
Don't give in or give up our lives have just begun

Verse 2:
It's not like I haven't try
But they just walked away
The worst is when we're alone with them
I didn't know it's so hard just to make a friend

Refrain 2:
Don't know what I've done wrong
Oh if you would tell me
I'm gonna lose control oh

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
I thank you for your madness
Now I'm pretty calm
I've learn from your ignorance
How to be bold

Chorus x2

La la la la la la la la (x4)

Verse 3:
Maybe it's meant to be like that
We're from different worlds
We may have some that we dislike
But there's plenty of them who are by our side
And it's our pride.

Music and lyrics by Belicia Yeap Qiao Bei
8.Dec.2009

8.Dec.09

See that date???
That date --- 8.Dec.09 --- marks the day my father's words left an unhealed scar deep down at the bottom of my heart...
I don't know if I'm exaggerating or not but it really stabbed me...
My mum just bought me a new acoustic guitar..
And she told me to show it to my dad...
And he asked me to play a song...
To "give him motivation"...
Or so he says...
So, I decided to play a song which I just wrote about one hour ago...
(P.S. I'll upload that later)
Yeah, I know he doesn't know that I wrote it myself...
And in 45 minutes too...
That song's very meaningful to me...
And it gives me motivation...
(Like I said, you'll see when I post the lyrics)
He said it was not good...
For me, not good = bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then, he left for an appointment with a customer...
Mum, too went out to get herself a bowl of Hokkien Mee...
And the teardrops started falling...
I can't believe this...
My dream just shattered in front of me in minutes...
So, Lee Lynn, Ming Yi and ZheWei...
This is why I don't share my songs with everybody...
Including my mum and dad...

Untitiled

我们不能选择亲生的父母,

但是, 我们可以改变自己的将来.

我们不能预知明天的天气,

但是, 我们可以好好安排今天.

我们不能控制他人,

但是, 我们能掌握自己.

我们不能左右别人的观点,

但是, 我们可以寻找自己的道路.

我们不能控制生命的长度,

但是, 我们可以决定生命的深度.

同样的, 我们不能事事都如意,

但是, 我们可以样样靠努力!

BTW, I didn't write this..

Don't get the wrong idea...

This is just a poem I found today..

My primary class teacher told us to memorise it... :)