I'm scared. Pathetic. But still scared.

Looking at that person staring right back at me

I really wonder if I'm really who I think I am

Or who other people think I am

Cause it's really funny how even I don't know myself

So, how can I be myself?

How can I trust myself??

I'm scared.

Pathetic.

But still scared.

Scared that I will mess things up.

And will never be able to put those pieces back together again.

I really wanna just dash out and grab your hand

But I wouldn't wanna startle you

I really wanna just tell you the truth

But I don't wanna ruin your life

I really wanna let you feel how you make me feel

But I wouldn't wanna force you to

I don't think I deserve you at all

Not even as a friend

You're just so out of my world

Out of my reach

And already almost out of my sight

I don't wanna mess you up.

I don't wanna make you feel as if you've done something wrong.

I don't wanna change anything.

I just wanna stay the way we are now.

I just wanna get to know you.

That's all I'm asking for.

Please.

=)

'Cause you'll never know how bad it feels

I can barely live a day without you

Don't know what I'd do

All I can is think about you

Cause you'll never know how bad it feels

You're the only thing that I'm addicted to

And if this is real

Well, baby I'm such a fool

To know how bad it feels

Yeah.

It's been quite some time since I've written a song.

And heck, I thought my talent was all used up.

But, who knew.

BTW, don't ask me why the lyrics are so sad.

Because it just came out that way.

I wish you knew how bad it feels.

You'll never see the way the corner of my lips goes up

Every time the thought that you'll never know that it's you I'm talking about

That it's you I'm always thinking about

Comes across my mind

Just to hide the fact that my tears are almost bursting out the edge of my eyes

That my lips are trembling

It's okay.

Knowing that you're happy makes me happy too.