Innocent

Life.

There's just too many things to say about you.

And yet, I can't seem to find the appropriate words to do so.

Sometimes

You feel so lost

You feel as if the whole world's doing their own thing

But you have no idea what to do

What to think

What to feel

You wish you'd never grown up

Never seen the true faces of those people who've hurt you

Never experienced the heart-breaking sadness

Never forgotten how to truly smile

You wish everything could've stayed the same

Beautiful

Simple

And somehow flawless

Too late.

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Once again, Taylor Swift has amazed me with her songs.

It made me rethink everything.

Made me stronger.

And maybe even more optimistic.

Thank you, Taylor.

For everything.

I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything
And everybody believed in you?

It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been.
You're still an innocent,
You're still an innocent.

Did some things you can't speak of
But at night you live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you would seen what you know now then

Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
When everything out of reach,

Someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent
It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did.
You're still an innocent.

Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too
Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never too late to be brand new

It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent.
It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent.
You're still an innocent.

Lost your balance on a tightrope.
It's never too late to get it back.

- Taylor Swift - Innocent -

Disappointment

I guess this had always been one-sided.

Guess it was only me who'd thought of us as best friends.

You left me scarred.

Left my heart bleeding without telling me the way to stop the pain.

And you know what the worst part is?

It's that you didn't even know.

How could you?

How many times have I tried

to stop my tears from escaping from the corner of my eyes,

practically failed, and ended up letting them mix with the water pouring down on my head?

I've lost count.

How much longer do I have to pretend,

To act as if everything's fine when nothing is?

I don't know.

Have you ever felt like you don't fit in?

Have you ever felt like you're left out?

Have you ever felt like you've been stabbed in the back?

Have you ever felt like you have no idea what's going on around you and no one's gonna bother to tell you?

Trust me.

I know how it feels like 'cause I just felt all of those in a day.

Really.

I'm disappointed in you.

Since when did you become like that?

Was I gone from your world for such a long time?

Were you like this from the beginning

and I just didn't know you well enough?

Or am I the one who'd changed?

I'll have to say it's true.

Time changes everything.

It's enough

I've done all I could think of

Chased down all my demons

I've seen you do the same

Hoobastank - The Reason

Love the meaningful lyrics. :)

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

and the reason is you [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you