Stalkers

So I was having dinner at Seoul Garden with my mum when I saw a few very awkward-looking people standing a few feet away from me. At first, I didn't really take notice as I was at a shopping mall and crowds do form easily there. But then, I had this sort of feeling, that they were looking at me. Or at least at my direction. It was probably just my imagination. Or so I thought. What made me realised that they were spying on me was that one of them walked to the other way and past by me. And then, she did the same thing but with another person this time. After that they stopped and whispered at a corner, where they thought I couldn't see. Gosh. It was so darn obvious. You could have just said hi to me.

P.S. Dear juniors, you guys seriously don't know how much you entertain me. XD

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing

Been looking for this song for quite some time now.

Love the awesome lyrics. ;)

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing.

- Aerosmith

Scarred

I don't know what I should do right now.

You made me feel as if everything that went wrong was my fault.

When actually it wasn't.

I don't get why you're treating me like this.

You left me alone.

Waiting for you.

That Friday night.

Not answering my calls.

Not calling me back.

For the first time,

I admit.

I was really scared.

And no word can fully describe the relief I felt

as I saw that familiar car.

As I saw your face.

From which I could tell that you've been drinking.

The way back was in an awkward silence,

you sped on again.

My heart was probably racing at a hundred miles an hour.

As the lights and buildings whirled past me.

The fear was building up inside of me.

Fear of hitting another car.

Fear of being hit.

Fear of losing control.

Fear of losing everything I now have in my life.

You hurt me deeply.

Said that I wasn't willing to help.

When in fact, I didn't know how to help you.

I couldn't help.

Even if I wanted to.

Why do you have to put it in such a bad way?

I thought you were someone who'd give me comfort.

Someone who would never ever hurt me.

Guess I was a fool.

I'm not asking for an apology.

I don't need anymore lies.

But please

Don't hurt me anymore.

Stop the Pain.

I'm sorry I'm not pretty.

I'm sorry I'm not smart.

I'm sorry I'm not kind.

I'm sorry I'm not outgoing.

I'm sorry I can't do anything.

I'm sorry I just want to be myself.

I'm sorry I swear too much.

I'm sorry I can' be everything you want me to be.

Now, would you stop hurting me?

Profanities

I've never realised this but I think I may have a problem with profanities. I thought I could've stopped using them by replacing them with the word 'potato'. Guess not. My problem just got worse recently. I even swore in class yesterday. Though I think no one heard me.

Jeez.

I really need my diary.