Because not all hearts are the same. :-)

Yeah.

I guess I've been depressed.

Or 'emo', as you all call it, in my latest posts.

And heck, I'm tired of it too.

So here's to all those people who said that I should be posting happy stuff up here.

And to those who know about the hidden messages:

This ain't one of them posts that has 'em. ;-)

Truth be told,

I'm not as sad as I seem to be.

It's just that:

My blog is sort of where I let all those emotions flow out.

And just rant.

And rant.

And rant.

And well, you get the point.

Heck.

I'm happy.

I truly am.

I'm starting to think that my life is beautiful.

That it's worth living for.

That it's worth struggling through those endless battles for.

And I'm pretty sure I haven't gone crazy.

Yet.

Anyways,

I wanna say thanks to that special someone.

For everything you ever did.

For everything you ever said.

For everything you are to me.

Thank you so much. ;-)

I love you.

Letting go

I really don't know what to do right now.

Or what to say.

I don't think I need to explain anymore.

'Cause explaining just leads to more questions.

And more scars.

I gave my best.

I tried my hardest.

But I guess my best just ain't the best.

Please.

Don' trust me.

Don't put too much hope in me.

Seriously.

Everything that has gone wrong is my fault.

I don't wanna let you all down.

Maybe I should just let go to save you all.

There I was again tonight

Forcing laughter faking smiles

Same old tired lonely place

Sometimes

Sometimes,

I just wanna say;

That I'm already in pieces,

That I'm not okay.

Sometimes,

I just wanna hide;

Better to keep others out of my world,

Than to invite them in and lie.

Sometimes,

I just wanna run away,

From all the madness,

From all the pain;

Back to the times when I was little,

And everything was beautiful,

When life was less bitter,

And fate was less cruel.

Sometimes,

I just wanna pretend;

That I never knew all the things I know,

That I never saw all the things I've seen;

That all those things that I've heard were lies,

That I was numb to everything and nothing can hurt me.

Don't get me wrong.

I don't wanna be a faker.

But I guess it's just inevitable.

Blind

Sometimes, it's just easier to pretend that you didn't see what you just did.

To just fake a smile and act like everything normal.

But, isn't it sad that one single word is all that it takes to bring you down?

I don't wanna be so easily controlled.

Believe me, I don't.

Sometimes, words can hurt. A LOT.

Fake

I'm so happy recently.
I think I'm gonna go over to a corner.
I have no idea why though.
And cry till my eyeballs drop out.
Maybe it's the holidays?
And lose so much water that I don't have to worry about going overweight.